Moving On

Burning Letter

Once again, you’ve let me down
This time, though, I’m afraid I cannot let go
The one man in my life who should be counted on,
has broken my heart again, I should have expected the blow
I don’t understand what I did, please tell me, I’m begging you
This uncertainty is what’s torturing my mind
I’m tired of rehearsing the same old questions
and never getting the answers to ease my troubled mind
Am I not a good enough daughter for you to hold onto?
Am I not living my life to your expectations?
Did I take up too much of your time, your money?
Did I take you too far and test the limits of your patience?
God, this hurts, you have no idea the pain you’ve caused me
I’ve lived without a father for months, and now you do this?
Before, I had my golden image of you to hold onto,
but now you’ve given me nothing but pain to miss
It was almost easier when you weren’t speaking to me
Back when all I got from you was a dead end
I should have never made that last call to you,
Searching for your voice, your love, my father, my friend
You shattered my heart with your disappointment
and destroyed the faith I still held for you to come back
The memory of you from younger days is now ruined,
it’s broken, bruised, and tarnished over black
You broke my heart with your accusations, Daddy
No hello, no happy birthday, just cold hate
I would say that an apology would suffice for the words you said,
but after you hung up on me, I’m afraid that now it’s too late
I don’t need your negativity in my life
I don’t need you looking down upon me for my decisions
I’m tired of running to you, looking for a fathers’ love
and getting cut off by your many broken bridges
So this is goodbye, I guess, just know that you chose this
I never wanted to lose you, I never wanted to hurt you like this
But after the pain you’ve caused me over all this time,
I’m moving on, and it’s your daughter that you’re going to miss

6 Comments Add yours

  1. Hey.
    I can relate to this poem. -_-
    Amazing write up. Very well expressed.

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    1. I’m sorry you can relate to it, no one deserves to be treated like this. But I appreciate you reading and commenting on my work, thank you, dear 🙂

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      1. Hmm… no one deserves a childhood like this.
        ^_^

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      2. It’s not so much the childhood part for me, its when I grew up, unfortunately…

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      3. Oh… I see.. hmm.. hope u move on, though it’s hard.

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  2. rolandlegge says:

    A very moving poem. Sadly too many people have experienced this loss. Good on you for moving on in life. Your father is the greatest loser.

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