Missed Chances

How did I not realize this?
Why were these feelings buried?
If they were uncovered earlier,
our lives would have intertwined.
Things would be so easy,
no battles, no betrayal, no heartbreak.
I know hindsight is 20/20
but I didn’t know it would be this clear
or hurt so much
or make me second guess everything
I’ve ever done
Everything I’ve ever felt
Everything I’ve ever said
I’ve been lying to myself
Thinking what I was doing and how I felt was the best.
That things couldn’t get any better.
I was so wrong.
Words can’t describe how wrong I was.
How many times can I kick myself
until I’m no longer black and blue
until I’m in your arms
where nothing can hurt me.
It wasn’t easy,
giving you up.
Giving up the dreams I wasn’t aware that I had
They were buried so deeply
and hidden by my ignorance
overshadowed by my obliviousness
The dreams where I should be with you
And you’re with me
The dreams in which we’re happy
Our life is complete
All we need is each other
the laughs, the smiles, the touches
the late nights spent enjoying each other
It swells my heart enough that it almost breaks
But somehow it doesn’t
It doesn’t shatter like it should
It continues swelling with the hope
and wishes that fill it.
They get harder and harder to contain.
I know its wrong, but I just can’t help it.
I keep falling in love with you all over again.

3 Comments Add yours

  1. Joyfull Mom says:

    Nice writing! Thanks for sharing 😊

    Liked by 1 person

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